wine + introspection = blab

There was a fair in town the other day. Rodeo actually. Despite the fact that I am very much opposed to the entire idea of a rodeo i couldn't stay away from the smell of greasy treats, bright lights, and blaring crappy music. i wandered, i ate nasty pizza, i got an airbrush tattoo, and i went to a psychic. she nailed everything on the head. i hope. maybe. she told me that i had an unsettled childhood. check. that i turned to the companionship of animals at an early age. check. that i drive a truck. not quite - but i've looked into it - and i drive the beer cart on a golf course as my current "profession" (hey, don't knock it. it's fun) she said that i would marry a cowboy. umm. okay. as long as he has nothing to do with the killing or torturing of animals i'm cool with that. she said that i've had two near death experiences. i've been told this before. one i know of - i wasn't in a car when i was supposed to be in a car. the other hadn't yet happened the last time i went to a psychic. i wonder what it was....?? creepy. she said i should be going back to school this year. while i don't have the money to attend school full time i have looked into taking a second language, as well as possibly taking up some guitar lessons. does that count? and last but not least she mentioned how i've lived in a lot of different places. check. but apparently i'm not done yet. she tells me that i will live in another country. and this is the point that sticks. i've been thinking about it. i have no idea where i would go, or why, or for how long. i have no idea where to begin to make a decision like that. don't know what government to contact and for what. it's a thought that's actually been eating at me for about a year now. i haven't gone yet simply because of the shitten. mr. tobi will not tolerate such a relocation. i would never put him through that. but when he's gone? and i am very afraid that it will happen sooner rather than later. when you can go anywhere and be anything, how do you begin to decide where and who?